I noticed all my nausea is usually early in the morning, could be contributed to my disease, sugar withdrawal, or my last dosage of one mg of Xanax, I take it between 10 PM and 11 PM to calm my body and mind. It’s been two months that I have been trying to get off Xanax. But since I went cold turkey off of all opiates/pain meds; I’ve been pivoting to only eating plants, fruits, walnuts, almonds, pumpkin seeds, almond milk and water. I was holding on tough on meal plan. Until four days ago when I was triggered with frustration and anger. Two days ago, I was able to walk the dog for 20 minutes and push through extreme pain in my joints, back and neck as well as chronic migraines. I was not even walking that hard when I got home, I probably sweated out 2 pounds of water and felt like I ran a marathon, breathing has been a challenge.
Tonight, I woke up at 1 AM my mind was racing thinking about all the things I need to do this week, and due to the lack of support in our cause, I relapsed. I had a handful of Potato chips and eight mint chocolate girl scout cookies. It helped with the craving, but my body wanted me to eat the whole bag and all the cookies, so I’m still not satisfied.
I went online and tried to be productive, going to Joe Rogan’s podcast and watching an interesting YouTube video on crazy health benefits of sauna by Dr. Rhonda Patrick.
I’ve been doing a lot of research on the benefits of ice and heat. Though I have my limited education, I continue to research with a desire to learn more. I was always taught never to stay more than 15 minutes in the sauna because you could die of heat stroke. The sauna was one of my methods during my fighting and wrestling weight cutting days. Hopefully this week, I will be better disciplined to my meal plan and I really want to push to get in a gym session in hopefully I can motivate myself to get energy and block out the pain and other obstacles holding me back.